Dinner for Two
I awoke from a slumber sleep
of milk and honey.
Visions
of your comforting smile faded as I rubbed the sleep from my eyes and I
realized that yet again I was alone.
This
torment has being going on ever since the day I forced you to walked out of my
life.
When I
look in the mirror I can see your reflection looking back at me just over my
shoulder gazing at me while I shaved. How I miss that sweet face, those lips,
that warm embrace.
The
memories of you fill ever empty room of this house.
The
love you put in to it surrounds my every movement. Like this house the wonder of the love we
had lingers in every corner of my mind.
It’s
sad how your own selfishness can destroy your true happiness.
I’m
learning a lot about myself since we’ve been apart. The most being that God
gives you one real chance at finding a soul mate but it’s up to you to keep the
two souls blended.
It took
you not being here for me to realize that.
It took
me sitting here with nothing on my mind but the love we had.
These
four walls act as echo chambers with an intense reverberation of your voice.
It shakes me to my very core.
I can
feel your lips whispering in my ear “I love you”.It shakes me to my very core.
I curse my stupidity for not grasping those words and holding them dear to my
heart.
Like breathing I took
them for granted.
Now
every breath I take, I take with labor. I'm trying to cope with the guilt from my
sins against your love.
I can
feel the curvature of your body and the suppleness of your…. "Damn how did I get
here"?
That’s
right I made a fool of myself. I was a fool for taking your love for granted .
" I’m sorry dear God you don’t know how sorry I am"!
I’m
just so thankful you agreed to have dinner with me tonight." I’m sorry dear God you don’t know how sorry I am"!
Maybe
if you could see this wreckage I’ve made of me you would know my regret of what
a fool I’ve been. With your forgiveness I could repair this damage by
rebuilding a strong foundation turning this house back into a home. A home for you and
me.
For you and me oh how I love the sound of that.
I’ve wanted this chance to tell you I love you…I’m in love with you.
These last few months I’ve been lost in the memories of you and I.
You
have to believe me. It’s not the wine that’s making me say this. I swear for once my
head is clear and my mind is focused.For you and me oh how I love the sound of that.
I’ve wanted this chance to tell you I love you…I’m in love with you.
These last few months I’ve been lost in the memories of you and I.
I’m
determined to be a man I can be proud of but even more than that I’m determined
to be the man you deserve.
Maybe
it’s too late, maybe you feel what I’m feeling is no longer your concern but I
swear if you take me back I’ll never stop showing you that I’m deserving of
your forgiveness and of your sweet and precious love. As the waiter pours us another glass of wine I anxiously wave him away.
I’m
listening with bated breath for your response.
I feel
a sense of peace and the oncoming of relief as you look at me, smile and begin to speak.
I blink
….beep….beep….beep the alarm awakes me from my beautiful sleep oh no not again!
I was so sure this time was for real but yet again I awake to find that I am
still alone.
Written
By:Larry D. Miller
Larry D. Miller has over 20yrs in the field of crisis intervention
as a call center supervisor for Runaway/Homeless at risk youth and families.
Larry enjoys
spending time with his family, writing (Larry has completed and published his
first book) and playing golf.
You
can find him online at his book's facebook page (https://www.facebook.com/pages/How-to-cheat-and-not-get-busted/115333998547614?ref=hl) his blog http://larrydm.blogspot.com or his Twitter page (https://twitter.com/LarryDWWilf)