Friday, August 16, 2013

Dinner for Two



                    Dinner for Two

I awoke from a slumber sleep of milk and honey.
Visions of your comforting smile faded as I rubbed the sleep from my eyes and I realized that yet again I was alone.

This torment has being going on ever since the day I forced you to walked out of my life.
When I look in the mirror I can see your reflection looking back at me just over my shoulder gazing at me while I shaved. How I miss that sweet face, those lips, that warm embrace.

The memories of you fill ever empty room of this house.
The love you put in to it surrounds my every movement. Like this house the wonder of the love we had lingers in every corner of my mind.

It’s sad how your own selfishness can destroy your true happiness.
I’m learning a lot about myself since we’ve been apart. The most being that God gives you one real chance at finding a soul mate but it’s up to you to keep the two souls blended.

It took you not being here for me to realize that.
It took me sitting here with nothing on my mind but the love we had.

These four walls act as echo chambers with an intense reverberation of your voice. 
It shakes me to my very core.
I can feel your lips whispering in my ear “I love you”.

I curse my stupidity for not grasping those words and holding them dear to my heart.
 Like breathing I took them for granted. 

Now every breath I take, I take with labor. I'm trying to cope with the guilt from my sins against your love.
 I can feel the curvature of your body and the suppleness of your…. "Damn how did I get here"?

That’s right I made a fool of myself. I was a fool for taking your love for granted .
" I’m sorry dear God you don’t know how sorry I am"!
I’m just so thankful you agreed to have dinner with me tonight.

Maybe if you could see this wreckage I’ve made of me you would know my regret of what a fool  I’ve been. With your forgiveness I could repair this damage by rebuilding a strong foundation turning this house back into a home. A home for you and me. 
For you and me oh how I love the sound of that.
I’ve wanted this chance to tell you I love you…I’m in love with you.
These last few months I’ve been lost in the memories of you and I.
You have to believe me. It’s not the wine that’s making me say this. I swear for once my head is clear and my mind is focused.

I’m determined to be a man I can be proud of but even more than that I’m determined to be the man you deserve.
Maybe it’s too late, maybe you feel what I’m feeling is no longer your concern but I swear if you take me back I’ll never stop showing you that I’m deserving of your forgiveness and of your sweet and precious love. As the waiter pours us another glass of wine I anxiously wave him away.

I’m listening with bated breath for your response.
I feel a sense of peace and the oncoming of relief as you look at me, smile and begin to speak.

I blink ….beep….beep….beep the alarm awakes me from my beautiful sleep oh no not again! I was so sure this time was for real but yet again I awake to find that I am still alone.
Written By:Larry D. Miller










Larry D. Miller has over 20yrs in the field of crisis intervention as a call center supervisor for Runaway/Homeless at risk youth and families.
Larry enjoys spending time with his family, writing (Larry has completed and published his first book) and playing golf.
You can find him online at his book's facebook page (https://www.facebook.com/pages/How-to-cheat-and-not-get-busted/115333998547614?ref=hl) his blog http://larrydm.blogspot.com or his Twitter page (https://twitter.com/LarryDWWilf)